I didn't remember being so fraustrated, anxious or even excited about my application to Polytechnic right after I received my O level results. Perhaps that was because I got an average result and all I thought was "Just get into any polytechnic which has a course that meets my L1R4. A course that I may have interest in." And there I went placing my current course as my 2nd choice. At that time, I can also say that I didn't have high hopes. I didn't even know if I could get into a local university (eg. NTU or NUS) after my polytechnic education. I might end up getting into SIM which can always be an alternative for me. Afterall its still university education, and so long as one has a degree qualification, you should be able to get a decent job.
However, looking back at what I did, I thought it might be god's will that I got into my 2nd choice. I may not have good grades like now if I had went into my 1st choice. And now, I m at this very same crossroad again.
[What to do after polytechnic education?]
But this time round, everything felt so so different. I cannot deny that I m fraustrated, irritated and at the same time excited all over it. With good grades, you are definitely opened to a range of wider choices. But I just felt that you have to take another step to weigh the pros and cons and find your ultimate answer which might be rather cumbersome! Of course, some of you might say, there are always 2 sides to everything so it's better to decide carefully. Yes. That's quite true, something which I cannot more than agree. But fraustration is still fraustration...
If application to US universities were not so troublesome (due to the different education system), I guess I might not have so much fraustration. They need you to take SAT, fill in lots of forms (lecturers have to help in the forms too) and write a few personal statements. Because of all these, I often have the idea of 'Save the trouble and not apply'. And the worrying thing of all is, going through all these trouble is not going to guarantee you a place in there!!
On the other hand, applying to UK universities were rather easy as they have a great application system which is able to answer the questions you might have. Filling the application was a rather smooth and simple task too. However, I fear rejection from the university as I applied for a prestigious one, where everyone else in the world with good grades would be vying for a place in there. This also made me felt that my good grades were not that great afterall. They are just will do grades and can't secure me a place in there at all.
Should have studied even harder. That's of course a joke. ;) I think the most important thing is not how hard you study at all. Its how you enjoy the process and experience of studying. The process of gaining more knowledge. And it only happens if you encounter the problem yourself. A process which you find answers to your own questions. Isn't that the aim of education?
Anyway, I would also be applying to NTU and NUS. However, I have not yet decided which university to enrol in if both local universities were to offer me a place in their courses.
It would be great if all 4 universities, including those overseas, were to offer me a place to study in their university. However, it speaks for another round of trouble and fraustration. This would mean that I will have to compare the universities and see which place suits me better. See what I meant?? Isn't it good not to have so many choices afterall?
Decision made: Apply for all 4 universities and let god's will lead me again to where I should go. Afterall, he has planned a path for all of us.
P.S. I am not a christian. I m a free-thinker.
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