2011 Started Lousy

As the title says, 2011 really started lousy.

First I was unable to get the response of my mentor.

He didn't reply me at ALL about the class clash. In the end, I had to email the admin staff in school myself and they helped me to solve that problem. I was seriously worried about not being able to fit Accounting 2 into my timetable. After they enrolled me into a class, I realised it was on a FRIDAY afternoon from 1430 to 1630. Who wants to attend lessons on Friday afternoon? If I had a choice, I would be better off on my way home. But anyway, who gets what they want in life as planned?

So I had no choice but to accept the fact and decided to change during the add/drop period if there were still vacancies in other class which I could fit into my timetable. And that's not all.

Second, my result wasn't as good as expected.

I was quite reluctant to view my results when they were released. However, you will still have to see how you did some other time, so I went to take a look at it and was utterly disappointed. I was glad that I passed my economics but was not really happy about my other modules and overall grades. They totally SUCKED! At first I didn't seem quite bothered about my lousy grades but as days past, I couldn't help but realised that it actually bothered me VERY MUCH.

In fact, I only got 2.1 out of 5 and 2.5...

I know this kind of grades couldn't carry on and after much pondering and discussion with my family and friends, I finally made up my mind to drop my double degree for the fact that the second degree is just an additional degree that allows me gain even more qualification and knowledge than others who were taking single degree. It is in fact not a necessity. One degree would be sufficient for one to get a job. From now on, I would work EXTREMELY hard for my grades and try to get a second class at least.

Now, I start to fear. I am going to take 2 Maths modules next semester and I am afraid I would not be able to do well. I know Maths is a module that just need practice. There is also not much memorisation to be done unless it's the formulas. But I still fear. I wish I have some sort of method to overcome all these fears.

And the worst thing is, I start to hate school. Even though I have a hostel room to stay in, I just felt it stressful to be in school. Therefore, I am going home whenever time permits me. Ahhh. Help me....

Motto: STUDY, STUDY, STUDY.

Grateful for all the wonderful friends and family members I have.
*Pardon me for the unstructured thoughts written here. I am confused now...

Perhaps this should be something I should keep in mind and to not be afraid of fear.